Thursday, December 30, 2010

Correlations - yoga & living well

I have noticed after attending yoga classes for the past couple of months, that most of the people who are actively practicing yoga appear very healthy. Fit, happy and healthy. I also noticed many vegetarians in the community. Perhaps that is where my inspiration came to try being vegan for a month. I hope that this really is the beginning of a lifestyle change for me since I love yoga and I tend to truly enjoy eating healthy.

Day 4 of the green smoothie should be a sign of that. I just feel so incredible getting all of those nutrients. I need to do this long term and discuss long term effects, but for now I am telling all of those people that I care about to just add this to their routine. At least 3 days a week to get started.

OK, I think I need to go for a run.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Green smoothie love

I have had 3 days worth of green smoothies and I feel fantastic! Something about getting the right amount of nutrients and good leafy greens and stuff...omg I feel great. Yoga last night was the best it has ever been and I'm looking forward to going again tonight. I also had a nice long walk today and tomorrow plan to go for a run before spending the day with a friend watching movies (while it rains).

I'm getting really excited about going vegan. If having one green smoothie a day can make me feel this refreshed, I can't imagine how awesome I will feel after being vegan for a few days.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Prepping to be Vegan for 30 days

A while ago I decided I was going to do a new kind of cleanse/detox this year. Typically I do a weekend or a week of eating pretty much a raw food diet of only fruit and veggies and only drinking water and tea. I give up coffee for the month switching to green tea. I try to give up booze as well for the month.

This year I decided to change things up and go vegan for an entire month. I may end up switching that goal to being vegetarian, but I am going to try really hard to be vegan for a month.

For those of you who don't know what being vegan means, it is no animal product or bi-product. I will not eat meat, fish, chicken, dairy or eggs. I have started to prepare myself for the change by incorporating a green smoothie into my daily meals (breakfast). The green smoothie movement (introduced to me by a co-worker) allows the body to get the nutrients it needs from dark leafy greens in a way that the body can absorb it best (liquid). So yesterday was a kale, parsley, mango, banana, strawberry smoothie and today was a chard, pear and mint smoothie. For more info on that go here. I'm really enjoying these smoothies and the smoothies are helping clean things out after all the holiday food I ate.

I'm also researching different recipes and will practice cooking a few things this week as well so that I'm well prepared. I'm excited to try new recipes. A friend of mine recommended my breakfast (at least on work days) be Vega which I have in chocolate and chai. On the weekends I plan to make some tofu scrambles or some waffles or french toast recipes that I have...or oatmeal with soy or almond milk (mmmm).

I'm also planning on increasing the number of times per week that I attend a yoga class for the month. I feel that all of these things will help me to balance out my body, mind and soul.

I hope to blog this journey so that others can learn from what I do right and what I do not so right...and if for some reason I don't make it 30 days as a vegan, I will be vegetarian. To help me stick with it, I will be making the pledge here.

Friday, December 24, 2010

Holiday fun

My parents have arrived from the east coast and we have started celebrating the holidays. My boyfriends parents arrived as well. Yesterday was a very fun day, and today has even more fun in store.

Yesterday, my folks arrived, we brought stuff upstairs and then relaxed with some lunch. It was then off for a mani-pedi which was quite relaxing and enjoyable. I brought them to the huge Whole Foods in Lincoln Park and they were amazed. Next was home to relax a bit more before heading out to see the Zoo Lights. We met up with the bf's family and saw all the lights. We tried seeing some animals, but they were all sleeping. My Mom was quite upset that the animals were asleep, but we did find some birds and a bunny that were awake, they just weren't zoo animals.

Everyone came over to enjoy some of the homemade lasagna I made...two different types. Meat (my Nana's ravioli stuffing turned into a lasagna) and veggie (with spinach and sun dried tomatoes). Lots of cocktails were enjoyed as well, but a very lovely evening indeed!

This morning, my Mom and I had a lovely walk. We even went into this beautiful church and talked with a patron who taught us all about Russian Orthodox.

Now we are waiting for a cab. My parents next present is a surprise to them, and I'm hoping they enjoy it. Tea at the Drake on Christmas Eve....I can't think of anything better...and I'm sure there will be lots of observations to report afterwards.

Tonight we go over to the bf's sister's condo and have dinner there. Tomorrow brings more holiday fun, but right now I'm just waiting for our cab and hope to get a very happy family!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Yuletime blessings

On this Yule, I want to think back on the past year and look forward to the next. Yule brings the sun king, today is the longest night of the year and then the sun king slowly returns to bring his light to the world.

This past year had a number of things which brought people together, both positive and not so positive. It was a tough year, but in the end the light is growing brighter.

January began with my internship growing to more outpatient treatment in addition to the inpatient treatment I was doing. We also went hiking on the 2nd on a very cold, beautiful day. As January continued, there were a few outings, including my best friend returning from Argentina.

February was lots of internship hours, lots of work, little time for anything else.

March was very similar to February, with the exception of St Patrick's day which was celebrated at the Grafton with O.A.T. as per usual.

April brought some difficult times. The day I found out I was going to have surgery on a cyst, was also the day we found out my bf's father was in the hospital and very sick. There were many weeks where things were touch and go but in the end, he is fine (thankfully). I also had surgery in April, and while that took longer to heal than I had hoped, it has healed and has not yet returned. There was a positive in April, our friends child was born, and she is adorable!

May brought more internship classes as well as my last semester of graduate school and final classes (internship II and Grief Counseling). I also started a garden on our back deck (lettuce, tomatoes, basil, flowers). The traditional trip by my Mom coming Mother's Day Weekend, and that was absolutely lovely! The month ended with the bf's birthday.

June was a continuation of interning, news of a potential job in my field of counseling, going to a Sox game and Mayfest (which happens in June) was celebrated. I interviewed for the potential job, found out I wasn't eligible for it, then interviewed for another position at that place and got it. I took the position, had to say goodbye to my team at Cars (which was sad, I love them all) and began my new career.

July brought a 2 year anniversary with the bf, the end of my internship, a graduation with my family coming to visit and celebrate, and a Bon Jovi concert!

August was the end of graduate school (officially) and I began training for a half marathon for October 31. There was also Lollapalooza of course :) Work was not what I expected it to be, so I began looking for a position that was more my personality. We had a scare with my Mom and the big c, but it ended up being just a scare and not actually there!

September was the wedding of the bf's sister, the most amazing wedding I've ever been to. Beautiful and fun, lots of dancing and enjoyment! We attended a steampunk wedding of a friend of ours as well, which was lovely, but very different from the other wedding we attended. Oh, and another Sox game :)

October I ended up getting a new job, pretty much my dream job, and I was starting right after a trip to Vermont where we celebrated my brother's wedding (he had a small ceremony in September, and the party in October). That was a great weekend, perfect fall foliage, wonderful hiking...just lovely. When we returned home though, our dog was very sick and we had to say goodbye to him. It was a very difficult time for us, but we were able to make it through. We still miss him dearly, but we love him and still have him in our hearts! We also were able to go to a Bears game which lifted our spirits. Finally I ran my half marathon, not as fast as I had hoped, but I completed it.

November brought searching for a new apartment, adjusting to a new job, and going to the UP for Thanksgiving. That was an adventure (we lost our exhaust system on the way home) but what a great weekend. My birthday was also fun. Oh and I started doing hot yoga!

December brought the move into our new apartment, just the two of us...it is perfect...as is our tree. I finished knitting the never ending scarf for the bf, and started crocheting some items. December has been a fun filled month

For 2011 I hope for less scares and worries, and more fun and lovely times!

Friday, December 17, 2010

Returning from hiatus

Hello cyberspace,

I took a quick blogger break due to life...after the half marathon I was really trying to learn my new job, get involved with hot yoga (at TruHarmony Yoga which is AWESOME!), and move into a new apartment. We're still unpacking and also trying to prepare for Christmas and the family coming to visit.

I did discover recently that I miss going out shopping for the holiday's. With family all on the east coast, I tend to shop online only and have things shipped directly. Yesterday I went shopping for some final gifts and realized, I love Christmas shopping. Not only do I love Christmas shopping, I just love shopping in general. There is something about going around a store and seeing all sorts of things that are great. Seeing, touching, smelling....shopping is a full body experience! I also learned that I get exhausted after a full day of shopping (and doing laundry and running other errands) but man it was great to go shopping.

Other things I'm excited to discover (of remind myself of) having time off. My work is closed after Wednesday, so 3pm on Wednesday I'm on vacation until the new year. I'm really excited to see what that's like. A week and a half off...now the first part we will have company, but the second part nada...I hope to catch up on sleep and relax etc, but I'm curious as to what else will occur.

Now, it is off to work, let the countdown begin!

Sunday, October 31, 2010

The half marathon

What a wonderful day for a half marathon. Low to mid 40s, slight wind for the first half of the race, well organized, lots of costumes. The race was a bit long (about 13.5 instead of 13.1) but there were lots of changes the race organizers needed to do (like redoing the entire course with about 12 hours to go).

My time is more than I wanted (2:21:23), but take off about 5 minutes due to the length and it's near where I figured. My placement overall makes me happy...the results:

Overall: 1565/2405
Female: 846/1470
Female 30-34: 179/307

For a first time race they did a GREAT job. Nice belt buckle as a medal, nice shirt, hat...but mostly it was just a great day for a race. The people were great, the course was great, it reminded me why I run long distance...but I don't know when I'll run my next long race.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Creating my lifestyle

I've realized recently that I feel rushed so much of the time. I don't really do the things that I want to as much as I should..at least in a day to day sort of thing.

For example, this morning I made coffee and I am now enjoying it slowly. I don't have it in a travel mug to drink on my way out the door, I'm enjoying it at home. I also have not turned on the TV and I hope to knit in a bit before we decide if we are going to the Bears game or not.

Don't get me wrong, I love many of the things I get to do, but I feel as though I'm obligated and rush through things, rather than enjoy the little things.

We had to say good bye to our dog this week. I say our dog because my boyfriend and his dog viewed me as a part of the family. I knew him for a little less than two and a half years. My boyfriend had him since he was a pup, and his life was too short at 8 and a half years.

I'm reminded how there are things in life that we always feel must be done, and we put off what we'd like to do because of that. I'm going to make a conscious effort to have a good mixture of those things.

I haven't been running in a week, and I'm ok with that. I have 2 weeks until the half marathon, and I'll run again this week, but I'll run distances I feel, not what's planned. I want to cook this week, and make things that are healthy and delicious. Last night I made venison stew and some fresh butternut squash soup. Do you know how easy and simple those dishes were? Very few ingredients and so flavorful.

Going to Vermont last weekend may have given me this bug to be more natural again and do take the time to do the things that you enjoy. I hope that I'm able to make it stick.

Monday, October 4, 2010

Back to basics

I knew I was going to have a rough day at work today, so I decided to run after work. I brought all of my running gear and headed out after work.

Pretty much all of my runs this week are 5 miles. I'm supposed to run 12 on Friday night, but I've already decided I don't think it will happen. Instead, I'm going to try and run as far as possible in Vermont on Sunday. Initially that was going to be a 5 miler, but I'm just going to go as far as I feel like going (and still make it to my brother's wedding reception on time).

Today's run, however, was a perfect fall run. Some clouds, some sun, 55 degrees, slight wind, leaves starting to change, not too many people out...I ran as I felt, which happened to be right at a 10 minute pace. 5 miles in 50 minutes, worked for me!

We'll see how I feel tomorrow morning, I'm planning on doing yoga or strength tomorrow morning, but hell if I feel like running I will...otherwise, next run is Wednesday.

On a side note, I haven't been very hungry the past few days. I was worried that my run was going to be effected because of this. It was not. Apparently when I listen to my body in terms of what and when to eat, it really does tell me what it needs. I may be able to lose some weight after all :)

Less than one month until the half marathon! I don't know what I will talk about after that...perhaps yoga?

Saturday, October 2, 2010

The return to racing

What a morning!

Weather:
Cloudy
Light rain
46-50 degrees
15-30mph winds (gusts to 40mph)
Peaks of sun

Race:
Disorganized
5 & 10k started at the same time, on a sidewalk
There was another walk occurring at the same place at the same time
The race took place on the lakefront path

Overall:
I'm very happy I did this race. The first mile and a half were frustrating with too many people in too tight of a space. Once the 5k people turned it was great until we hit the end. The end the walkers and the 10ker's were all together so I tried to sprint to the end and that just wasn't working too well.

This race was for a great cause, and that's how I'm viewing it. I had fun going back to racing, and I'm looking forward to the half marathon later this month. I'm also happy I was able to raise so much money for the cause!

Now off to celebrate my return to racing :)

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Hot yoga!

Holy cow. Hot yoga is incredible. Hot yoga at TruHarmony Yoga kicked my butt! I went and did a Yoga Scuplt and Bootcamp tonight. It's in 95 degrees, it was 75 minutes long, and I feel amazing. I have never sweat so much in my life, I swear. At the end, I felt incredible, so healthy, so fresh. As my instructor said, "I shed a lot of layers" in that class.

I'm so excited to go back and try again, just this time bringing a beach towel with me.

At one point I was doing downward dog and my feet slipped since my mat was so drenched and my feet were so wet...I took that as a sign to go into childs pose. I was happy with how well I kept up, and really impressed with how I felt afterwards. I think this is going to become addictive quickly.

My advise to anyone going to a hot yoga class:
Bring a mat
Bring a beach towel
Bring a big bottle of water
Listen to your body
Bring a change of clothes afterwards
Not sure if a bootcamp is the best first hot yoga class to do, but it was amazing!

Hopefully I'll be ok to run in the morning :)

Recovery time? I don't need no stinky recovery time!

Last night from 5:30-6:20ish I ran 5 miles. This morning at 6:30 I started running 4 miles. Just over 12 hours of rest in between...who needs recovery time!

It was fantastic this morning. The sun wasn't quite up yet, I went on a new route, and I just ran. It was fantastic (did I mention that?)

Tonight I get to go to a Yoga Sculpt and Bootcamp and I am quite excited about this! Hopefully it will stretch out all the muscles that I work when I run.

Since I ran 4 miles this morning, plan is for 3 miles tomorrow...we'll see how I feel after yoga though :)

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Fantastic

This morning, I was not ready to get up. I opted to stay in bed, run 5 after work, and tomorrow deal with getting up for 3-4 miles and then yoga after work.

I'm so glad that I did this.

Wonderful run, under 10 minute pace! 9:50 to be exact. This really made me feel much better about Saturday's run since I proved to myself I'm doing just fine. The run was great, light wind, beautiful evening. Being out and running after work helped me to feel better about my day too.

Now that I'm home, made some stew for dinner, will relax a bit, go to bed early, and run in the morning...after work tomorrow is a yoga bootcamp which I will review :) Thursday is another run in the morning as well, then Saturday is RACE DAY!

I love running in the fall, it just makes me so happy!

Monday, September 27, 2010

Bad at updating this past week

It appears I neglected to post regarding two of my runs this past week.

Wednesday run was only supposed to be 3, but I felt good so went just a tiny bit farther, 3.25. It was a good run, but still more humid than a September run "should" be.

On Thursday, my hammy's were dead. I don't know why, but they just were so tight I didn't even know if I could do the stairs at work. I rested that day rather than push too much.

Saturday was my 10 miler. This was a big deal to me since when I ran long distance more frequently a couple of years ago, 10 miles was my favorite distance to run. The weather was more September like. 55 degrees or so, north or northwest wind 10-15 mph, sunny, and just that feel of fall running. I opted to head to the lakefront but ran from my apartment so that takes a good 2 miles. I ran north into the wind for 3 miles, just wanting to hit my turn point. I was not as fast as I wanted to be, but I just kept going. There were lots of people out on the lake, and many of them passed me, but it was ok. I hit my turn point and then had the wind at my back...or so I thought. For most of the 3 miles it felt at my back, but every once and a while it was in my face. Then I started heading west, and the wind was back. I just kept going, I no longer cared about my pace, I just wanted to keep going and get home.

Once I got home, some how I was short about 3 blocks, so I kept going until my garmin told me I was at 10 miles. Perhaps I ran a bit further, which explains the 10:22 pace, but even if I was just at 10, I finished the 10.

I felt out of shape.

How you ask? 10:22 pace made me feel out of shape. My body was fine with the distance. My breathing was fine with the distance. I just felt out of shape. I realize, I ran 10 miles. Most people never run 10 miles. I remember why this was my favorite distance, but I have a ways to go before it becomes my favorite distance again.

The good news is, I have more opportunities to run this distance. I am officially signed up for the half marathon on October 31 which is good.

I am also signed up for an important 10k this Saturday. The AIDS Run & Walk 10k in Chicago...I'm still looking for sponsors, so if you can, please donate before Saturday right here:

http://afc.aidschicago.org/netcommunity/flobear100


Tomorrow morning 5 miles is planned, so I will do my best to write up about that at some point tomorrow.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Hot & Sticky, yet inspiring

This morning was a hot, humid mid September morning. I don't know how high the humidity was, but I know that by mile 2 I was drenched and feeling dehydrated. Something you do not want to feel 2 miles into a 4.5 mile run, dehydrated.

How would I fix this next time? Always remember to have at least a few sips of water before going out for a morning run. Potentially bring water with you on a hot morning run as well.

I've noticed I've been lazy about bringing water with me. I have a fuel belt so it's not as though it's difficult for me to bring it, I just don't for some reason.

At the end of the run I realized that I really do want to start doing a race or two. October 2 is that date. I was scheduled to run 8 miles, instead I'm going to complete a 10k race (6.2 miles). I am running the AIDS Run & Walk 10K.

Anyone feel like donating to a great cause? Go here:
http://afc.aidschicago.org/netcommunity/flobear100

It's good to give when you're doing something that you love...especially a great cause like the AIDS Foundation of Chicago.

The next step is to officially register for the half marathon, something I plan to do later this week. I'm happy that I'm able to get up and run in the morning. I'm happy that I get inspired to run after work at night. I still don't know if I'm a morning or an evening runner, perhaps that makes me both :)

For now though, I need to stretch some more and drink more water...but the pizza I had for lunch was well deserved!

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Long runs, rain, poop

Once you start training for something, there is this natural tendency to become obsessed with your poop and your poop cycle. This is an important part of the long run since you really do need to poop before you go out for a long run since, well, there aren't always places you can go to poop, and really, do you want to while out on a run? Long run especially...though short runs you should try to poop first. Short runs in my mind are less than 5 miles, long runs are greater than 6 miles...that's just how I view them. On a short run if you have to poop you can always run home and either go back out or be done with your short run. On a long run that's not usually the case. It also depends on where you're running. If you're driving someone to run any distance, that can play a factor as well.

See, you start talking about poop and then there are all of these different factors that pop up regarding your poop! My general rule of thumb is this: long run = empty out the tank...that may mean more than one poop! So be sure to give yourself enough time before you run to empty out the tank.

Rain...rain is an interesting thing that runners deal with. I love running in the rain, but I hate getting the motivation to run in the rain. A few things about rain you should know:
1.) Rain does not soak your shoes, puddles do
2.) Once you reach a certain wetness, you no longer feel the rain
3.) Rain keeps you cool while you're running
4.) There are very few people you will run into when you're running in the rain and you all will give each other the nod, and sometimes hear the "way to go"
5.) When you're done with your run in the rain, you feel extra good
6.) Running in the rain is fun and really can just make you feel like a kid again

That's how I motivate myself to run in the rain. Once I'm out there it's fine, it's the getting out there part, but trust me, it's totally worth it!

So today's run, 8 miles. This is the first real long run I've done in this training. It felt fantastic. It's amusing how the first half of the run seems to take forever and the second half is done so fast. Even more funny when time wise my split was totally off and my second half was about a minute longer than my first half. The first 4 miles were into the rain, the second 4 miles were into the wind, but it was just awesome. I'm really looking forward to next weeks long run of 10 miles. When I used to run long distance all the time, 10 miles was my favorite distance, so this is exciting to be back in shape enough to go out for a 10 miler in one week! For now though, I will be very happy with my 8 mile run today. I came home and enjoyed a glass of dark chocolate almond milk, a wonderful recovery drink due to the mix of carbs and protein, and well chocolate almond milk is just damn tasty!

For the rest of the day, I will enjoy myself and be excited that I did more than most people in terms of working out today....well except for people running the Chicago Marathon, they ran 20 today (or tomorrow)

Thursday, September 16, 2010

4.5 at a 9:38 pace

Well I found (or perhaps refound) the secret...stop thinking, just go how you feel. I figured out my route earlier in the day and lucky for me, it was into the wind first. I started off feeling pretty strong, and I just went with it. Yes, I stopped at 4 lights, but not for long and ran in place.

I ran how I felt, I did not look at my time, and only checked my distance twice before I was near the end. I checked near the end to make sure I had enough distance. I ended a 4.5 mile run in 43:17, I was really pleased with myself. This week, even with sore legs, I'm getting stronger and just going with it. I'm really looking forward to the 8 miles on Saturday...after that I think I'll officially sign up for the race and not just keep thinking about signing up for the race.

I still haven't decided if I'm a morning or an evening runner, but I've been running for 7 years and I always seem to alternate...hell I even did afternoon lunch runs for a couple of years.

So my secret discovery is to just run how I feel...yes eventually I'll go back to planned runs with intervals and sprints and easy etc, but now it's just go how I feel, but hit the distances I need to hit.

I felt so good when I came home that I decided to do a little bit of strength, just biceps and triceps, but still, that was great.

OK, now, relaxation!

Body aches

Well, yesterday I ran my scheduled 3 miles though I was exhausted. I ended up running faster than I have since I started training. Under 9:30 pace, I think about 9:27 or so. It's awesome!

Today I am sore, but that really good sore feeling. I have to run 4.5 tonight after work, but I'm going to try to run home rather than run around work then walk home.

Funny story on yesterday's run. I work at a psychiatric facility where individuals live and receive treatment. One of my resident's saw me on the way home and got confused, starting running with me and couldn't catch up...he asked me to slow down and I tried as best I could, but it made me feel wicked fast.

Today's run should be good...possibly a rainy run and that works for me :) but now, off to work

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

After one week off

So because I was sick last week, and had an important wedding to attend (my boyfriend's sister's wedding), I did not run last week. It was a light week of running, so I decided it wasn't too bad of a decision.

Last night I went out for my schedule 4 mile run. It, was, fan-tas-tic! I had the wrong pants on which will cause a problem for this evenings run, but whatever, I'll deal.

4 miles, most of it on the lake, just lovely. I was very consistent and I felt great. Today my legs are slightly sore and I think after running today and once more tomorrow, my legs are going to be dead on Friday...so long as they heal up for Saturday it'll be fine.

I still have not actually signed up for this race yet, I'm thinking after I get paid on Friday I'll just do it. I think I'm pretty much ready.

One word to the wise...wash all new running clothes before you run in them. Also...when you try them on in the store, run in place a little bit...my thighs did not like these new pants, but hopefully they will get worn in quickly.

Also...missing one week of training will not kill you and it can make you mentally stronger.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

She's running the distance (halfway)

On Friday, when I had planned on running my long run, I caught a bug that's been going around. It's hard to tell if this is a summer cold or a flu like thing, but it stinks. I had body aches, stuffy nose, sore throat, headache, you name it I had it! I opted to not go for my run on Friday since I had the body aches. Typically, I've been told that so long as you don't have a fever you can go running, I just did not feel up to it or anything for that matter...well except for crochet class :)

So yesterday (Saturday) I worked a full day and then decided I had to try to go running. I had felt like poop all day, but kept taking medicine that seemed to be helping. The body aches had gone away, I was just dried out (thanks to the cold medicine). I brought a full fuel belt of water (since I was so dried out) and figured I'd give it a shot. If I didn't feel well within the first mile, I'd turn back...otherwise, I'd go for it.

Since I was running from work, I opted to go to the lakefront. There was a strong breeze out of the west so it didn't matter where I went on the lake. For Labor Day weekend the lakefront was empty...I guess 65-70 degrees will do that...happy for me, it made my run very enjoyable. I opted to go north on the lakefront, up past North Ave beach, Fullerton, and up to Diversey. Rather than turning around and running on the same path, I opted to go under the bridge at Diversey and run around the harbor. I really liked doing that...must run that again! I ran past the zoo (thought about running through it but there were still people mulling about so opted against that). Then on North. Again, I didn't want to run the same area twice yesterday, so I opted for Dearborn, Clark, and LaSalle back to Division rather than just running on Division. When I got to Wells I realized I was short about a block or two...so I went south on Wells and turned around before sprinting to Orleans.

I made it all 6 miles and I felt great.

While running my nose was clear, I was still dry but water helped. I felt at one with nature and just in a happy place. The weather was perfect, my attitude was right, my pace was slow but I was just enjoying myself out there.

So now I must officially sign up for the half marathon since I was able to run half the distance yesterday, that means I can totally run the whole thing. My brother once told me, if you can run half, the rest is just mental. Of course, he had told me that because we were training for a 16 mile race and he had only trained up to 8 before a minor injury...but he managed to make all 16 miles.

What did I learn from this?
When you are sick, you can totally go running...just be prepared that after feeling great again during the run, when you start to feel like poop afterwards it can be doubly hard, since you just felt great.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Rainy start

I opted for a triple workout yesterday...triple if you count my walk home a workout.

4 mile run in the morning
1.5 mile walk home
30 minute cardio & strength workout (Gilad)

In light of the extra workout yesterday, I understand why my training schedule says to do the run and strength workout the day before a rest day. My body was dead this morning. I'm sure the rain outside had some impact on that as well, but for sure the extra workout did some (good) damage.

I've brought everything with me to run home this evening though...something I haven't done here yet. Yes, it's 1.5 miles home, so I'll add onto the run down here a bit, but still, should be a good run and possibly still raining out.

I do love running in the rain, but it's hard to start the day off running in the rain. I rather end the day running in the rain, unless it's a long run on the weekend, or a race, then it's fine to start the day with.

I think it's just the thought of going to work after working out in the rain...I'm weird, I understand and accept this.

On a side note, I think I need to identify what's going on in my brain. I seem to be turning into a cynical individual rather than my positive, cheery disposition individual that I adore. I need to work on this and see what is going on. It may be some of the thing occurring at my place of work, or the attitude of the individuals I spend time with at work...or perhaps my own self questioning and thinking since I've gone from no free time to all free time...something to ponder indeed.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Stats - people read my blog?

Holy cow, there are people all over the world reading this...I need to start being more interesting!

Here are my page views for the month of August:

United States
162
Denmark
11
Canada
9
China
7
Vietnam
3
Australia
1

Who are you people??? Please comment and let me know :)

Getting out of bed in the morning, tricks and tips

This morning I did not want to get out of bed.
I knew that I needed to get up.
I knew that I needed to go for a run.
I knew that at 6:00am it would be the coolest temperatures all day for me to run.
I knew that I would feel better if I got up.

I was all curled up in bed, cuddling with the bf and the dog jumped up to cuddle too. My legs were achy from all the miles that I've been putting on them recently, my tummy was still full from the Indian food feast I had the night before (gave up on dieting), I started to convince myself that running after work would be a better idea because it might be a stressful day...

Then I sat up.

The true secret to getting out of bed in the morning is sitting up. Once you sit up you realize that you're really not as tired as you think you are, and that you are ready to start the day. It will also identify if you are sick and need to return to bed. So the secret to getting up and out of bed in the morning is...sitting up.

Once I sat up and realized I needed to stretch a bit and just go running, it was easy for me to get out of bed. I got dressed and used the couch to crack my back (that has been getting a bit worse recently). Then it was out the door into the 95% humidity and 75 degree pre-sunrise morning. I decided to go further south than usual rather than run south and then more north...this was decided since the wind was coming out of the south and I wanted that resistance in the beginning of the run, not the end.

Mile 1 I went faster than I've been running recently, 9:43 I want to say. Mile 2 I struggled a bit, I'll blame the wind as I was at 10:18 I think. Mile 3 was a weird one because I had just hit mile 2 later than I had planned, thinking that I should have hit it blocks before I did. I began worrying if I had gone far enough or if I was going to need to add extra blocks on at the end. Mile 3 was 10:08 I want to say. Then came Mile 4. The Indian Feast started to make itself known and at the same time, my body wanted to push and feel the strength. I took that as a sign to push myself more than I have been. I now realized that I was going to be really close to the 4 mile mark but perhaps slightly short. I sprinted that last few blocks only to have to turn right before my house for half a block to get the full 4 miles. This of course is only if the garmin was 100% accurate, but I wanted to hear that beep and not short myself. Mile 4 was 9:40 I think. Over all my 4 miles was 39:53 so I may be a bit off with my guesses above, but just shave it off of mile 4 if I am.

Tonight, since this work day is turning interesting, I believe I will walk home and also do some strength. If the bf is out running I may do yoga instead...but I need something other than the run. Tomorrow morning is another run, then off for Thursday and long run Friday this week. Mixing things up to keep them interesting :)

There will be a post in the near future that will not be tagged for half marathon training and will discuss expectations and realizations of my career change and place of work choice...but not today.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Week 4 begins

This morning I opted to change up my schedule and went for a run rather than strength. I'm moving things around this week due to a schedule change at work. 3 mile run was scheduled for today with the new schedule...I went out and did 3.1 slowly. It was very humid out and I was drenched within a block...that plus this weekend was a lot of going out with friends, so I needed to get the remainder of the beer and wine out of my system.

I plan on walking home this evening and potentially doing some strength this evening as well. It all depends on how hot the walk home is. Forecast says 90+ and humid so I may just walk on home and call it a day.

I am feeling much better each time that I go out and run. My weight is going up somehow rather than down, but I feel that things are fitting better. It's only the beginning of week 4 so I need to give myself a break (I realize this) but still...I want to see better results!

I also decided I haven't been having enough carbs post workout, so this morning was a smoothie and a piece of toast. Smoothie = 1 banana, 1/3 cup blueberries, 4 or 5 strawberries, vanilla almond milk and 4 ice cubes. Sooooooo yummy!

I'm going to keep this up and I think if the 6 miler on Friday goes well I will officially sign up for the training.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

5 miles again

I feel fantastic! I forgot how you can get into a grove once you get to a longer run. This morning was 5 miles and I was right on my 10 minute pace. It's weird to be back at a 10 minute pace since I was down to a 9 minute pace, but starting from zero again makes that happen.

We had gone out and were out pretty late last night, so this morning I went out a little later than I had hoped. 9:30ish this morning I was out there, sun was bright and hot, but it was fine. Once I got home and had some water I wanted to keep going, so I did my strength workout today as well. My plan is to move the schedule around this week with runs Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday.

Also on Friday...crochet class! WAHOO!

Back to running...I've found that the more I do it, the more I love it again, which makes me quite happy.

Now off to enjoy the rest of this summer day.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

FAIL

So my knee was bothering me last night, so I slept with it elevated...and that combined with some wine equaled a fail this morning...no run.

I think it's fine though, I'll make up that run tomorrow and then my long run on Saturday. My knee was still achy this morning so I'm listening to my body and taking my break today instead of tomorrow.

3.25 miles tomorrow, 5 miles on Saturday...no problem.

In other news, I am seriously questioning some of the decisions I've made recently...I am enjoying my thought processing and just need to allow myself to continue the path, provided I stay positive.

Cryptic enough for you?

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

The body speaks, but when to listen?

One thing about being in training is I feel I need to listen to my body more. When I get a "craving" I need to be able to identify if the body is "craving" something or is my mind or heart "wanting" something.

This morning was supposed to be a light 3 mile run. Instead it was a more difficult 3.25 mile run with a sprint or two in there. I need to start doing interval training, body is telling me. I was also supposed to just run today, but instead, I lifted when I got home. I had the energy and my body wanted me to do it. I feel great because of it!

Prior to the lifting this evening though, I had a craving for a glass of red wine. I walked home, lifted, had some water...still craving red wine. I have had two sips so far and my body is reacting, in a happy manor.

So I must need more antioxidants? I'm going to investigate more, but that's my initial gut instinct. Also, I realize I have not had enough fat today so need to have a heavier fat dinner (about 700 calories short too) so a glass of wine and some pizza (and veggies) makes sense to me.

Tomorrow morning is another run...I'll be sure to state how I feel on that one.

Other things to pay attention to. My back, my hips, and my knee. While running my knee sometimes aches a little. I had surgery on this knee in 1999 and every once and a while it acts up. Once I stop running it goes away. Need to keep paying attention to that. My back, upper back is achy but not when running. Lower back (where I had surgery in April) is starting to act up at the beginning of the run, but then goes away within 5 minutes. Continue to monitor. Hips are sore...which I think is just running and not stretching enough...so need to start doing yoga a couple of times a week.

I hope that paying attention, listening and responding to the needs of my body.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

A country run, a city run

On Saturday we were up in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan (da U.P.) visiting the bf's family. It was a great weekend. We got up on Saturday morning and went on a lovely little trail for the 4 mile run. The bf is a faster runner than I am so he pushes me a bit. I was able to keep my pace up and we were pretty even with our pace (9:40, 10:01, 10:03, 9:50) and it was so good to be out in the fresh air running. We saw some wildlife (blue jays, chipmunks, other birds) and just enjoyed being out there.

This morning it was back to my morning running routine. 4 miles for me this morning as well but city run this time. I don't know my splits, but I know that I'm back to being just under a 10 minute pace. This makes me very happy as I like being under the 10 minute marker for some reason, don't know why. The run this morning put me in a great mood and I'm beginning to wonder if I should add some short runs on my "off" days of Monday and Friday. I mean, Monday is strength day and Friday is "off" but I tend to walk home each of those days...but maybe a quick short run in the morning to start off the day...hold off for now.

Tomorrow is 3 or 3.5 I believe and 3 miles on Thursday plus strength...I did do my strength workout yesterday after walking home which helped me feel better. I'm looking forward to the walk home tonight as it really helps me calm down at the end of the day. So tonight...walk home, laundry I believe, and then spending time with the bf.

As an aside, I have listened to the bf and I am eating more...I was not consuming enough to keep up with the training (I was averaging about 1400 daily) so I'm trying to up my intake to 1700 especially on running days. And, I am promising not to measure as much (ok honey) :)

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Busy busy busy

Sorry I have not been keeping up to date with the running logs.

My body is achy, it's a good ache, but it's achy. I also found that three days in a row of running when you have not been consistently running, it can make you a little extra achy. Also note don't be a moron like me and then decide to wear heels to work...that's just crazy (especially on fire drill day).

I have been keeping up with running in the morning before work all this week (Tue, Wed, Thur) though I did oversleep a bit this morning (that might have more to do with today being day 10 in a row at work).

Yesterday I felt great on the run and actually ran over. I had a good pace going too (though slow) and just overall felt that things were going great. I had wanted to do yoga post walk home but the bf was working out, and running 4.25 miles in the morning and walking 1.5 miles home after work is enough working out for a day I suppose.

Today, as I mentioned, I overslept slightly. I still went running in the morning and was glad that I did. Today was just 3 miles, and I went about 3.1 (just under). My back is kind of the most achy, my hips a little, but really it's not that bad.

I remember the first time I was in training for anything I just didn't know the best approach and just went running for 30-45 minutes a day. I think I skipped a few days, but just went most days. I'm glad I know now to only go about 4 days a week for runs, especially when you haven't been consistent. I will admit, now that I'm back into a routine of running, I can see myself returning to a 5 or 6 days a week running habit...there are worse things in life.

Post this half marathon I already know I'm running my normal Turkey Trot, but the 5 or the 10k...that is now that question. And the other question...do I run the 16 miler in January? I'm going to be wondering that after the half though, no reason to worry now.

Things that I'm realizing as training is happening:
I need more running clothes
- new and more sports bras
- more running capri pants (I'm not big into shorts)
- more socks that work well
- more headbands

If I keep going with what I have, I need to do laundry weekly and sometimes I like going every other week. I also believe that I will need more winter running clothes since, well, I think I'm hooked on running again kids :)

I do want to go for a long bike ride, but that will have to wait until next weekend as we're going way up north this weekend. I can't wait for a 4 mile run out in the country, that just makes me so happy.

Anyway...must look into new clothes, continue to push forward with my am workouts...and I still have to walk home tonight and the lift (run & strength day). I'm really happy with my decision so far, over a week later!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Magical sheets

Never underestimate the magical power of clean sheets. I forget about that magic quite frequently and the bf and I do not change our sheets nearly enough. I think one should change sheets weekly, but I don't think we've been keeping up with that goal.

I believe it is because of our wonderful clean sheets that I was able to have a great nights sleep. I woke up once around 4:30 and told myself 90 more minutes before it was time to wake up and go for a run. When the alarm clock went off, I felt rested!

I was out the door for my run by 6:20 and did a nice little stretch and warm up, then off for about 3 miles. The weather was amazing. 70 degrees, sun was not pounding down yet, wind out of the west (so I went in that direction first) I'd say about 10-15mph but it felt refreshing. I did get hung up at a couple of lights and jogged in place but kept the garmin going. My total time was just under 32 minutes and total mileage 3.1 miles. I do believe that I was closer to being under 31 minutes, but will say I was at a 10:15 pace for the time being.

I am getting more confident in my runs and know that my pace will return eventually, but right now it is about endurance and consistency. I do prefer morning runs to evening runs because the air feels cleaner and there is less traffic (foot and car) so it is more enjoyable and less judgmental.

I am hopeful to do my 4 mile run tomorrow morning as well. I think something that will help is trying to fix the calorie issue I'm having right now. Yesterday was a major fail...I was at about 600 calories until 9 at night. The thing is, I'm eating lots of good food, they are just very low in calories. I also knew that we were having frozen pizza for dinner so I may have been trying to save up for that. Regardless, laundry took longer than expected so dinner was not until 9, and then I really wasn't hungry but ate my slices anyway. I think that if I eat better during the day today and earlier and healthier dinner tonight, I will have more energy for the 4 miler in the morning tomorrow.

I am really happy with my progress so far and hope to continue with this optimism. The bf and I have decided to go away this weekend so this weekend's run will be in the country, that makes me very happy as well!

Monday, August 16, 2010

Cross training

I will admit, I was a bit lazy yesterday with my cross training. I opted just for bike commuting and since I had bike commuted the day before with my "long" run, I felt some rest was ok. This morning I woke up feeling much more sore, now I'm doing a bit better though.

Today's planned workout is the normal walk home followed by some strength training. I'm debating doing some of the strength training at work since I just found a new "10 minute office workout" that sounds interesting, and well I've been at work a long time today.

I am excited that today is Monday though since last week I couldn't start thinking about the weekend. Today is Monday and today is pretty much over...Friday I get to leave early and go on a quick weekend trip away...thus lots to look forward to.

I am very ADHD with this post, so I think that's a sign to stop. Tomorrow we return to running so I plan to have a better post tomorrow...perhaps I'll even run before work!

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Basic stats

I haven't run multiple times in a week for a while. So running 3x in one week is awesome...total of 10 miles this week, it's a good start and it makes me happy :)h

Returning to training

It's funny to think about my life. One of the things I had mentioned recently was how I wanted to redefine myself and identify the things that I enjoy. Earlier this week an advertisement came up for a half marathon on Halloween. I have not been running consistently in a while and I even wondered if I was still passionate about it. The moment I saw that half marathon I decided I'm running it.

Funny how was I have a goal in mind, nothing will hold me back. It's been in the 90s with a heat index in the 100s and I've been going running. My body is slightly stiff and sore at the end of the run, and the next day, but I need to walk a lot at my job including doing stairs. By the end of the day, my body doesn't hurt anymore.

Week Mon Tue Wed Thur Fri Sat Sun
1 n/a n/a 3 m 3m+ st rest 4 xt
2 st 3m 4m 3m+ st rest 4 xt
3 st 4m 3m 3.5m+ st rest 5 xt
4 st 3m 4m 4m+st rest 6 xt
5 4m st 4m 3m+st 5m rest rest
6 st 4m 3m 4.5m rest 8m xt
7 st 4.5m 3m 4.5m+st rest 10m xt
8 st 5m 3m 4m+st rest 8m xt
9 st 5m 5m rest 12m rest 5m?
10 hike 4m 5m 4m+st rest 10m xt
11 st 5m 3m 5m+st rest 8m xt
12 st 4m 3m 2m rest rest Half Marathon

Interesting how I have two weddings that I'm going to during the middle of training. Also keep in mind that in addition to this, I walk 1.45 miles home every weekday, and on the weekends I ride my bike around town and to work (when working the weekends).

I am trying to get up earlier in the morning to complete my runs, but I am having a difficult time doing that. Since my job is approximately one mile from the lakefront, it's quite easy to run to the lake, run around there for a bit and return to work to get my bag and then walk home. I did try walking home as my warm-up one day and then running, that was not so good. Running first and then the walk home as a cool down is much better, especially in this heat.

I do think it's interesting that I have not run a long distance since 2008. I ran the Soldier Field 10 Miler, Memorial Day Weekend, 2008. I pretty much stopped training when I started Graduate School in September 2007, but I guess I was able to train a bit for the 10 miler. Looking back on my racing schedule since I started Graduate School, it's pretty sad.

2006
March - Wacky 5k
April - Shamrock Shuffle 8k
May - Bike the Drive
June - Run for the Zoo 10k
July - Race to Taste 5k
July - Danskin Sprint Triathlon
October - Bucktown 5k
October - Chicago Marathon
November - Lincolnwood Turkey Trot 10k

2007 (before Graduate School) - pretty much a race per month
January - Boston Prep 16 miler
March - Wacky 5k
March - Shamrock Shuffle 8k
April - Spirit of St Louis Half Marathon
April - Ravenswood 5k
June - Subaru Sprint Triathlon
July - Nike Rock n Roll 8k
August - Chicago Half Marathon
September - Bucktown 5k
October - Comer Kids 5k
November - Lincolnwood Turkey Trot 10k
December - Jingle Bell 5k

2008 was a good year for racing too...but I had a few life changes go on so running helped distract me:
January - Derry 16 miler
March - Wacky 5k
March - Shamrock Shuffle 8k
April - NEIU 5k
April - Wrigley 5k
April - Ravenswood 5k
May - Soldier Field 10 miler
August - Nike Human Race 10k
October - Bucktown 5k
November - Lincolnwood Turkey Trot 5k

2009 is when it fell apart between the accident and school being too tough:
March - Wacky 5k
March - Shamrock Shuffle 8k
October - Bucktown 5k
November - Lincolnwood Turkey Trot 5k

2010 I did not race. I was working full time+, interning 20 hours a week, and in school. No time for racing. So now I have time again. I am working my 40 hours a week and walking home each day, but I needed more. I ride my bike on the weekends and do DVDs at home, but needed more. Why not just go for the half? So that is what I'm doing...and I think it's going to be a fun journey and hope you enjoy me discussing it on here.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Totals

Day 1
Bands/DJs seen/heard = 11
Guess at miles walked = 5
Miles rode = 11

Day 2
Bands/DJs seen/heard = 12
Miles walked = 6.25

Day 3
Bands/DJs seen/heard = 8
Miles walked = 7

Totals
Bands/DJs seen/heard = 31
Miles walked (approximate) = 18.25
Miles rode = 11

What does all of this mean? Awesome weekend :)

Day 3 - lolla + best quotes overheard

What an amazing day. We started off being lazy and just relaxing and got down to Lolla around 2:45, our latest day getting there yet.

Lineup:
Freelance Whales - awesome, awesome
Violent Soho - so much fun
Frightened Rabbit - awesome, awesome
Erykah Badu
Wolfmother
Cypress Hill
Soundgarden - amazing

So the first three bands were all new. I loved those first three bands...so incredibly much. We stayed down for the next 3 so we could have good seats for Soundgarden. Don't get me wrong, I was excited to experience Erykah Badu, see Wolfmother, and Cypress Hill was fun, but the longest hour ever.

Soundgarden was the best though. I saw them at Lolla once before, 1996...but passed out from the heat (I was really, really close to the stage when it happened too). So tonight, that was NOT going to happen. The first hour of the set, we stayed in our seats, each taking a turn to take pictures closer up. Then we decided to go close...like 50 yards or less from the stage. It was AWESOME. I felt like Chris could see me. This of course helped us with our post show plans (see down below).

I also was able to get an amazing organic cotton dress for $25 (normally $60) so that was pretty cool too.

Quotes (from today):
"Everyone keeps forgetting things because of all of the drugs, but NOT ME!"
"See, white people do it too"

Post show:
We have ended the night by watching Singles...one of the best soundtracks in the history of movies. Especially post seeing Soundgarden and remembering the 90s...ahhh the grunge days.

Overall, this was a great Lollapalooza. We found some great new bands (the three above, plus Jukebox the Ghost and Gogol Bordello), got to see some bands I really wanted to see (Neon Trees, Lady Gaga, Green Day, Social Distortion, The Black Keys, Jimmy Cliff) and a few others that were cool too. This years staycation still gets two thumbs up....now to finish up watching Singles.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Lollapalooza, Day 2

I think that once you turn 30 your body really does change. It's day 2 of Lollapalooza and my body aches more than I remember it aching last year. I've drank less alcohol, more water, rested a bit more, but I have been walking a hell of a lot.

The bf and I bought a pedometer today just to see...6.25 miles of walking to train for Lolla, walking around Lolla, and walking from Lolla back to the train.

We started the day by cleaning up the house and then running errands. My suggestion to those who go to Lolla in the future, just keep the day for Lolla, nothing else. Also, we're happy we did not ride today, one day was enough...this year :)

Today's lineup included some of the best shows I've seen, perhaps ever.
  • Blues Traveler
  • The Verve Pipe (on the kids stage playing their family friendly music) :)
  • Stars
  • The XX
  • PerryEtty vs. Chris Cox - dj set
  • Gogol Bordello - AWESOME show!!! Danced so hard had so much fun
  • AFI
  • Social Distortion - again, freaking sweet
  • Kaskade - dj set
  • Slightly Stoopid - nice find
  • Green Day - a-freaking-mazing...but we had to split up the set. The really get into the show, bring up fans, fireworks, just freaking awesome
  • Phoenix - good times

Yup, that's 12...12...we walked a bunch, danced lots, but did manage to sit a bit as well. A great day, though tiring.

I am sorry that we missed out on a wedding shower and a bachelor and bachelorette party...but we've been planning for Lolla since last years Lolla.

Tomorrow will be another long day, thankfully we both took Monday off to relax. More to come tomorrow!

Friday, August 6, 2010

Day one - Lollapalooza

Today was a great day. This is the 3rd year in a row that I've gone to Lolla. I really enjoy going and spending time with the bf and meeting up with other friends who are there.

We decided to ride our bikes this year. Not all three days, but at least for today. The bike valet was great and I really appreciate the fact that the Active Transportation Alliance does this! Entrance was great and easy this year, a north entrance! The bf and I rode down last night to get our 3 day pass bracelets so easy entry.

We started off by going to Jukebox the Ghost, a band that reminds me of Ben Folds Five...nice. We then looked around a bit. Purchased our lolla gear and over to Green Street. Renewed my Active Transportation Alliance membership and we were able to hear American Bang a little. Then we headed to the kids stage and were able to see Rocknoceros. They were fun.

Next was get some food since neither of us had eaten...we opted for a cheeseburger today. Then over to the South stages and met up with a few groups of friends. Devo, who put on a great show. We stayed until Whip It was played, then headed back north. About mid range, we stopped to listen to Semi Precious Weapons and that was followed by the one show I was really looking forward to seeing...Neon Trees. OMG I was excited for that show. I was pretty close and once the show started realized I could have been closer. It was great though.

It was now time to go further north. For those of you who don't know, Grant Park is about a mile long, and we do a lot of walking back and forth. So yes, further north now for The Black Keys and for Jimmy Cliff. Wow, just wow. The bf and I just really relaxed during most of that. We hadn't sat much and with the riding and walking, a bit of relaxation was in order.

Once we were about halfway through the Jimmy Cliff set, we headed back south again. We made it there to hear Chromeo for a few songs, but mostly just observed all the people around us. Then it was time...Lady Gaga! She puts on an incredible show, really, really incredible. We did have to leave a bit early since the bike valet was closing at 1030 and 300 bikes were able to be valeted there, so yes, left slightly early.

On the walk back north, we passed Perry's stage and were able to hear 2ManyDJs spin and then passed by The Strokes but mostly we were just walking towards our bikes.

The ride home was mostly non-eventful. Of course, we were at our block, I moved over the lane to make the left, and I had plenty of time. A car came flying up behind me and beeped at me. The car was in a big rush to get to the red light. That freaked me out a little, but thankfully we were at our street. So then we got home and just relaxed.

I love this weekend. The bf and I consider it our "staycation" each year. It's just fantastic. We really get to enjoy the city and each other, so yay :)

Now, it's time for bed :)

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Re-identifying my likes

During this final semester and final class in Graduate School, I took Grief Counseling. It's an interesting course and I've learned so much information out about myself. One of the things that I've determined I need to do is redefine who I am and what I like.

So much of my life I have worn a mask, done things for other people or because I thought other people wanted me to do them. Now I realize (at only age 30) that I need to do what I like. Yes I enjoy making other people happy, but since I cannot control other people, I can only control myself, that is where my focus needs to be.

To begin this project (so to speak) I have started to do things that I used to enjoy doing. Things that I may have started for someone else, and now need to see if I like doing it for me. So far I have discovered that yes, these are good things for me.

Sunday, per the pictures I posted, we went on a 30 mile bike ride (with breaks in between). I want to go on another 30 miler this weekend, but alas, we have other plans at the moment. The ride was good and it felt great and I was all smiles.

Today, I went for a morning run. I have not been able to go running recently, no motivation, desire, or much enjoyment of it. This morning though, not the case. My brother told me last night he wants to go for a 5 mile run the morning of his wedding reception with me. I haven't run 5 miles since my bike accident almost a year and a half ago. No time like the present to start it.

I'm having fun figuring out my likes and dislikes again. So far, no dislikes, just likes :)

Ok, off to work!

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Maiden Voyage

There were quick a few different voyages that we undertook today, all which deserve to be discussed, and many which should have been recorded but I forgot the Flip at home.

I went to deposit my first paycheck (which was totally messed up, missing about half of it, but should be fixed by Tuesday). So I went through the drive-thru and the boyfriend commented on how it was like we were back in the 80s. Yes, quite exciting for him as he is an ATM only user. While we were waiting for my receipt, we heard a car crash happen but did not see it until we pulled out. It was unique since normally you hear the beep and screech but no crash...this was a beep crash. No one looked injured so that was good.

Next step, driving to the newly renovated Target...on the way we passed this bar which has the Iowa Hawkeyes flag, Chicago Bears flag, and Indianapolis Colts flag. The bf pointed this out and said it was weird that they had Iowa and Ohio, when I heard that I looked thinking maybe the Buckeyes were there...no, he confused the Colts as being in Ohio not Indiana. That was the first of many awesome one liners from him today.

The Target is pretty awesome, wider aisles, more foods to pick from, pretty cool. We also found an awesome rainy day project of plaster bobble head kits that we get to paint! So excited to do this, you have no idea. The problem with the new Target, everyone is unsure of where things are, thus more wandering.

Why is it that people, while shopping, forget that there are other people around them trying to shop as well? It's as though people think walking down the middle of the aisle, leaving your cart wherever, randomly stopping, cutting people off, or the favorite of the day is as follows.

The checkout counters are setup two at in row. We were waiting in line and the woman starts to open up right next to us (meaning we were right at her conveyor belt). Instead of her taking us, or saying anything to us for that matter, we notice she's opening and as we were backing up, two guys say "Great timing" and start throwing their stuff on the counter. The bf and I look at each other and just said (loudly) well that was rude. I mean I'm all for waiting your turn in line, but when you're waiting in line and right next to the person who is opening up and at the belt, wouldn't you think you'd at least ask instead of try to push people away? Of course, we stayed in the line that we were in and that was a mistake. The cashier we had did not understand how to give gift receipts to the person in front of us, so by the time she got to us she wanted nothing to do with us. Including, not scanning our coupons nor taking off the discount for bringing our own bags.

New fact that I learned today though...you must be 18 years old to purchase compressed air. The woman who wanted nothing to do with me, carded me. I asked her for what. "Um, that" with a point towards all of the stuff we had bought. At first I thought it was the lysol, then realized it was the air. So yes...weird experience.

Joann fabric and grocery shopping were next, which were uneventful.

Now...I'm making my sauce from scratch (which I love) and instead of regular meatballs....beef sausage meatballs!

The other new adventure...dehydrating fruit :) We are in the process of dehydrating a bunch of bananas and a dozen apricots. Hopefully in 6-20 hours we will have some tasty dried fruit!

The unfortunate part about all of this, I was hoping to go to a Housewarming party at 3...it is 5:15 and I'm so not ready to go, thus, staying home and going to work on things around the house. In order for us to go out and take advantage of tomorrow's beautiful day, I cannot treat myself to a party today. I will make it up to my friend I hope by going out to dinner soon!

So I hope that the fruit comes out ok...and no, the Colts are not in Ohio :)

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Things I have learned this week

  • Illinois and California are the only states with Psychiatric Nursing Homes
  • Many individuals at the Long Term Care facility are very active in programs available to them
  • Sometimes it can be too early to be completely autonomous at a job
  • I have been working towards the right goals in my life
  • I am going to be an awesome therapist
  • Walking home from work is a really cool way to unwind at the end of the day
  • Working an 8 hours day is possible in this day and age
  • Working an 8 hour day appears to have a negative correlation in regards to stress
  • I remember what it is like to be happy
  • I cannot wait until my internship is done (Saturday)

Monday, July 5, 2010

Nervous

I am so nervous about starting my new job tomorrow since it's not just a new job, it's my new career. I am so close to graduating, starting my new career, it's what I want and what I've been working towards, but I'm nervous as hell.

OK, going to go calm down and prep for my new career.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Having a "good" week

So I wanted this week to be a starting off point if you will. I had been partying a bit too much recently and needed to cleanse and jump start my body back into good habits. With that said, I did not drink any liquor after 2:00am on Sunday morning (in my mind still Saturday night). That may end tomorrow or Saturday, but I'd like to try and make it a full week. I also decided to cleanse my body of most toxins.

This is how my week has been so far.

Monday :
Workout
Morning - Jillian Michaels Shapeup Backside DVD
Food:
Breakfast - vanilla yogurt, raspberries, blueberries, blackberries, 8 oz V8 Gogi Raspberry
Snack - peach
Lunch - Protein bar salad (lettuce, cucumber, broccoli, chick peas, tomato); small vegetarian chili
Dinner - peach, fruit salad
Drinks throughout day - water and green tea

Tuesday:
Workout:
Evening - 60 minute bike ride
Food:
Breakfast -light blackberry yogurt, raspberries, blueberries, blackberries
Lunch: Strawberries, cherries
Dinner: Cabbage, tomato, zucchini stir fried in sesame oil; small piece of white fish with 1 potato and green beans
Drinks throughout day - water and green tea

Wednesday:
Workout:
Morning - Jillian Michaels Shapeup Backside DVD; AM Yoga DVD
Food
Breakfast - light blueberry yogurt, raspberries, blueberries, blackberries, strawberries, V8 gogi raspberry
Snack: Pineapple
Lunch: Sopraffina: Caprese salad, fruit salad
Snack: Pineapple, wasabi peas, 1 whole graham cracker, 2 marshmallows, 1 piece of chocolate
Dinner: Boca chicken patti, 1 oz cheddar cheese, english muffin, zucchini
Drinks throughout day - water and green tea

Thursday:
Workout:
Morning - AM Yoga DVD; 20 minute run (plus 6 minute walk for warm up and cool down)
Food:
Breakfast - vanilla yogurt, raspberries, blueberries, blackberries, strawberries, V8 gogi raspberry
Snack: Pineapple, cherries & peach
Lunch: Plan is either Baci or Roti
Dinner: Plan is more cabbage and tomato but adding protein
Drinks throughout day - water and green tea

So why am I sharing this for the entire world to see? I feel that starting off by cleansing the body through fruit and veggies is always a good thing. Much easier to do in the summer than winter! You then need to slowly reintroduce protein. I am beginning to think more about being a part time vegetarian. I love me some meat, but eating how I have the past few days has made my body feel great.

I can tell that my body needs protein though, which is why I added some on Tuesday and again last night (other than the yogurt).

The key to this plan of mine though is the working out. This morning my plan was to do yoga in the morning and then workout after work (maybe even run/walk home from work), Instead, my body told me it wanted to run then, as soon as I was done with yoga. I had enough time to get to work on time instead of early if I went for a run, so I did it. Since the surgery I have not wanted to run (in all honesty I haven't wanted to run since being hit by the car last year). Today was the first day that my body told me it's time. Once out running my body also told me it's time to quit smoking again, for longer than 2 years like the last time.

I've also decided to challenge myself with this because of all of the transitions happening in my life right now. I'm about to graduate from Graduate School after being in the program for 3 years. My internship is almost up which has been my life for one year. I am changing jobs after being here for 2 years for my career change (but still not 100% public knowledge where I work). Plus, this is the first time that my boyfriend is actually going to be able to spend time with me without us scheduling something (even though we live together) since I've always been in school or school and interning (on top of my job). So this is a HUGE transition period for me...I'd like to be healthier during it, might as well right?

Monday, June 21, 2010

My attempt to clean up

This past week was a very intense week. I found myself picking up some habits that I was not happy with, and not treating my body with the respect that it deserves.

Over the past 2 to 3 weeks I've found that I have not been eating properly nor working out so that stops NOW!

In order to prepare myself for the next few weeks of excitement and change in my life, I need to begin with a cleanse. For the next 2 to 3 days I'm going to complete a fruit and veggie cleanse and drink only water and green tea (all fruit or veggie juice is ok too).

I am also challenging myself to a 7 day workout event (potentially a 30 day event, we shall see). I began this morning by doing a Jillian DVD and expect to do one a day this week. I may start going for early morning runs again as well, but one step at a time.

The goal for this is to put my body back on the track I would like it to be. I enjoy working out. I enjoy eating healthy. And I really enjoy how I feel when I do those things (plus how my body looks). So...start things off strong early this week, then hopefully complete a 30 day change (so when I graduate in July I look and feel FABULOUS!).

Saturday, June 5, 2010

I have so much on my plate right now, yet I ignore some of the most important. Relationship stuff. I know, we all have relationship issues. Mine right now is essentially ignoring the warning signs and issues and just believing that the love is enough. I saw that in myself today and said no. I re-entered my apartment and went to my SO. That opened up the door that needed to be opened. Unfortunately, now he is in the other room sleeping, while I am here thinking and typing.

Why do we run away from the issues that are closest to our hearts? Is it a societal thing? Generational? Gender? Just me? I don't know. What I do know is that I need to prioritize or reprioritize what's going on with me. How does one do that? Lists, thinking, watching silly movies and making comparisons to my life...at some point I'll be able to identify what's most important.

What do I want to do? Sneak away with said SO and have a grand ol' time together...forgetting about the troubles of each day, and just enjoying what we have. Just thinking about that helps to remind me of what's important.

So to anyone who actually reads this blog...remember...keep those who you love closest to you in your heart and in your life. And as a wise person told me in class this week (thanks Lauren), "don't love your job more than it loves you".

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Being snubbed in the age of the internets

So I realize that I may have been snubbed today...and I'm reading between the lines...with what I want to see I suppose. Is it a bit negative? Absolutely, I haven't been snubbed like this in years. I thought I was past this.

The problem with being snubbed in the age of the internet is being able to see what you missed. Feeling like it's thrown in your face. Then making sure you don't do the same thing by going on a rant or being all high school. Was I slightly? Unfortunately yes. I played the passive aggressive game of stating I felt insulted by a friend and placing it in a social media platform.

Man...I don't know how anyone will survive high school now with the internet. I'm having a hard enough time not feeling like I'm in high school and I'm 30!

I'm usually very careful about what I put on the internet, but sometimes, my emotions take control of me and I play the passive aggressive game. I need to confront better or address situations better, rather than play the passive aggressive, use the internet as a game tool.

At least I can be vague right? To the next generation, good luck, life with the internet and social media may sting a bit!

Saturday, May 15, 2010

WTF?

WTF am I doing? I can't even try to begin to figure it out. I'm in so many places at the same time...at least this morning (though the dogs woke me by hovering and staring at me until I would open my eyes) was warm and I saw the sun before interning.

Anyway, I can't stop and just enjoy a moment right now...I'm going in way too many directions at any one time. I know I'm becoming a therapist and all, but I need to figure out why in the hell I can't just be in a moment at any given time.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Let's just keep it in perspective

I had a fantastic three day weekend this past weekend. I haven't had a real weekend in months and I realized that in two months, I will have real weekends again.

Taking some time off and enjoying myself made me realize I need to do that more often. I also need to speak up and do what I want to do. So to start things off, I am going to take a real vacation this fall. I have two months of interning left, a graduation party to plan and have, a few weeks left of classes after that...and then I'm going to just be for a while.

This fall the BF and I need to go away, just the two of us. Everyone I've talked to seems to agree with this statement, and here I thought everyone would be upset! I'm really excited about this get away, even though it's 4-5 months away...my guess is the next 2 months are going to fly by which will really help.

I also realized that I put way too much pressure on myself and think that I really do need to do so many things for other people. Everyone once and a while I need to just do something for myself...and in 2 months I'll have lots more time for that.

Amazing what a few days off can do for ones' perspective.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

True friends, true colors

I have had a number of things happen over the past year. I have had very limited time available for myself let alone my friends. I have had a family emergency (with the bf's family), found out I needed surgery and have had said surgery, all while working more and more hours at work and interning 20 hours a week...plus my final classes in graduate school.

Throughout it all I have found friends in the strangest of places AND have found that you cannot always depend on the people you thought you could.

One person I thought was a friend, truly is not. The day of my surgery they wondered why I couldn't go and meet them, but they did not want to come and meet me. This is the same person who did see me in the hospital last year when I was hit but was most curious about me getting a room with a view. That person has not really checked in on met at all...and is frustrated that my schedule is not open enough for me to go do what they want to do. I think we are both deciding that we're not really friends anymore.

Other people on the other hand are really showing me that they want to be my friends. Reaching out to me via multiple formats, hanging out and understanding my lack of time to do so but happy to have anytime with me.

Then there are the people who really are my friends...they just keep showing me that they love and care for me. Teasing me, excited when I have a spare moment to say hi, making plans for when this experience is over and helping me stay sane.

Ok, that's enough bitching...back to hockey!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Manny's

OMG I went to Manny's for lunch today. I was so excited as it is soooooo yummy, but more so because when I go to Manny's it means I'm having lunch with Wagner and Doege.

I miss them.

I found out that when Doege was asking me if I'd come back to work there she meant for a job I had wanted before, not my old job. I should have asked for more details, but I know I'm better off where I'm at. Still, it would have been nice to work for my friend again, a mile from my house, but I'm only 3 miles from home as it is where I'm at.

Manny's day is always fun. I feel a part of the crew again. I love my current co-workers but there's something special about Wagner and Doege. Wagner was my old "work boyfriend", happily married man with two grown sons...we were just buddies. Doege is like a sister to me, again, we worked together for years, but it's more than that.

It was just great to see them...and hopefully we will do this more frequently because I really, really do miss them. Seeing them for lunch twice over the course of a year and a half is not enough time!

Monday, April 19, 2010

My life is coming into focus

It is April 19

In 89 days I will have a graduation ceremony and essentially be done with my internship experience. In 119 days or so, I will be done with Graduate School. That's 4 months people...in 4 months I will be completely done with Graduate School.

I just took my certification exam on Saturday and have no clue how I did but that doesn't matter...it's done. If I did not do well enough to earn my certification and license, I will take it again in October.

I am still going to be a crazy person (50 hours at work, 20 hours interning and now 2 classes at school) but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I find myself laughing a bit more and not as tired. I find that I enjoy doing things (see photos of this weekends project). I am starting to think about a vacation!

What am I going to do when I have all this extra time back in my life?




Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Ratio

This morning I observed that the ratio of men to women is a bit more drastic than I thought down in the financial district. I walked to work via Jackson instead of Van Buren this morning and I think that was part of why I noticed the difference. It's not so much the under 35-40 crowd, it's the over 35-40 crowd. All of the over 40 people I saw were men...mind you there were a few women here and there, but mostly everyone I saw who appeared to be over 40 was male.

Is this because I am in the financial district or is the ratio truly that overwhelming currently? I also found it interesting that all the the under 40 were in jeans (for the most part) and all of the over 40 were in suits...generation gap indeed.

Thoughts?

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Country snow - City snow

Chicago got hit with a big storm yesterday, I think about a foot of snow. Luckily it's the lighter snow, but a foot of it is heavy.

I finally rolled out of bed at 6:25 this morning knowing that I needed to do some shoveling. Usually the bf does the shoveling, but he is not feeling so well. I also wanted to get a good workout in so I figured shoveling for half an hour would do the trick.

I went on outside and everywhere was white, fluffy snow. The blowing snow had started but not gotten too bad. Though my boots were not completely covered, the snow was above my ankles as I walked to get the shovel. I opted to shovel the steps a bit, bad idea. Lots of garbage and leaves where there. Oh well.

Once I got up to the top of the basement stairs, I began the shoveling. Usually we shovel the entire sidewalk on the side and the front of the apartment building. I was not going to be able to do that in 30 or 45 minutes. The snow kept getting heavier, and I was running out of room, and I only had about 1/8 of the area shoveled.

You see the problem with city snow is based on room limitations. You can't throw it in the street because the plows will just throw it back up and it creates a bigger mess. Or with the side streets, you never know if/when the will come and plow those.

Another problem with city snow is that people walk through the snow on the sidewalks. They need to, I understand, but it is so much more difficult to shovel snow that has been walked through than snow that is fresh.

So I ran out of room quickly, with each section of sidewalk I was shoveling. Then when I got to the main street, people had already created a path, so I tried to make it a bit wider and nicer, only problem was, it was packed down.

After about 45 minutes of shoveling I had to be done. I was running late for getting ready for work and people kept walking through the areas that I hadn't shoveled. My car was only halfway uncovered but I don't need it until 6 tonight.

Ok I started this post about 5 hours ago and I just can't finish it...the moral of the story is...country snow = more room for the snow to go, less people tromping on it...city snow = no room, no understanding, and too many people

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Starting up again

Wow, major fail for the end of 2009 and beginning of 2010 in blogging. Things have just been so crazy and hectic. Trying to find a balance has been difficult to say the least.

My goals for the next few months keep changing. I find it amusing that part of my counseling role is to help people define goals and steps to achieve them, yet I keep reorganizing my own goals. Practice what you preach I suppose.

I've found that I truly am at a turning point in my life. I'm struggling to continue finding inspiration at my work place. The closer I get to the halfway point of my internship, the more I wish I could just focus on that, get it over, and get a job in my new career. I understand that is not an option. I also understand that the world will not be perfect for me once I embark on this new career.

I currently sit at 334.5 of the 700 hours that I need. By the end of this week I will have hit the 350 hour mark...halfway. I have so many hours each week now that the second half will go by faster than the first half. I also took the department exam this past Saturday. The DPE is a requirement at my school, cumulative exam of everything I've learned in grad school. I believe I passed, but will find out in less than 2 weeks. Come April (17th to be exact) I have an exam that is double the length of the DPE to get my certification. The NCE (National Counseling Exam) is required in IL to get your state license. This is how close I am.

Come May I need to take one more class and finish up my internship hours. I'm averaging about 20 hours a week right now, 17.5 more weeks after this week and I'm complete...so in June, I need to slow down my hours to last until the end of July. And here I was worried about even getting to 700 hours!

See, even when I was planning on discussing the work stuff, the internship stuff takes over. I'm in such a weird place in my life right now...but that's for another post.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

A new year

I find it funny how at the beginning of each new year people plan to do the same thing they do every new year.

Lose weight
Quit smoking
Be nicer
Don't spend as much
Exercise more
ETC

No wonder 95% of resolutions don't make it to the spring...you can't just say "I'm going to do X", you need a plan...you need a lifestyle change. If you want to be nicer, you may have to incorporate new people into your life (or remove some of the old).

It's a new year, lets start fresh...how? So often I hear (and say) some of these things, but I find it to be interesting that no one really knows how.

So this year, we started fresh by doing something totally new for both of us. We went hiking on January 2 in 8 degree weather. We went and saw beautiful ice falls, and I only slipped twice...in the same spot. The bruises today are quite pretty.

This year is going to be a hectic one for me. I need to get about 450 more internship hours in by August, take 3 more classes between now and August, all while working my full time job and trying to continue to have a happy, healthy relationship. Oh and maybe get some time in with my family and/or my friends.

My resolution, so to speak, is to keep taking it slowly. The first two weeks of the year I plan on going on a hard core diet...but I do this every year to take off the holiday weight gain. This year I have decided on the Special K Challenge to start with. Cereal for breakfast, fruit snack, veggie wrap (sometimes with turkey) for lunch, either a snack bar, fruit, banana bread, or celery with light cheese for a snack, protein shake or protein bar for dinner, and then another fruit or veggie snack for a treat. I think the snack at night is going to help out bunches since I usually don't want to eat a full dinner post interning.

My plan, 1-2 weeks doing that, then focus on just being healthy...that is unless I go really crazy and try the 21 day vegan cleanse...we'll see about that.

Also, I have done wii fit 7 out of the last 8 days so I'm going to keep going with that (or the Jillian Michaels wii game) for the month of January. Hopefully in February I'll add some workout DVDs and then maybe by April or May I'll feel like waking up early enough to start running again...but no races until after the internship (unless the Warrior race is before, that I might do).

Other than that...happy new year, and enjoy some pictures.

Frozen still


LaSalle Canyon


Ninja's hiking!