Wednesday, November 5, 2014

My birth story

Birth story time!

I was having contractions starting around 7:15am on November 4. Got to triage around 10:30am and was 3cm with contractions every 3-4 minutes. Got admitted and brought to L&D around noon. Had the most amazing nurse who is how I managed to stay going all natural. Did walking and birth ball, had lots of people talking with me. Got checked around 3 and was only 4cm so doctor broke my bag. Holy cow did that speed everything up! Went walking and contractions were every 2 minutes or less. Wanted to give up on natural. Felt like I had to poop! Nurse heard that and got excited so we decided to get me a shower. I was primal screaming so into bed and I was 8cm. The doctor was pushing with another patient so the midwife came in, about 5 pushes and I was at 10cm just as the doctor came in. I think 3 more and he was out. I pushed for 20 minutes (so it had to be more pushes) but I was done before the residents made it in! His head is 37cm and I did it :) 8 pounds and 10 ounces of love that is 21 inches long. From beginning to end only 10 hours of labor. I did tear a little but worth it :)

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Coming to an end?

I am 38 weeks and 2 days pregnant today.

It's incredible to think about really. I have grown a human. I can feel him moving around and how he's changed (kind of). After trying so hard to conceive, finally conceiving, making it through the first trimester, growing in the second trimester, and now winding things down in the third trimester, this journey has been incredible.

I tried very hard not to complain during my pregnancy since it was so hard for us to get pregnant. Are there rough days? Absolutely! This part is really hard because sleep is not really happening, there is no way to get comfortable, and hormones are making me crazy. Add to that contractions starting, fluid leaking, stuffy nose, waddling, baby's just a whole lot happening at once...and I'm still working (go me).

Things that I feel I have learned:
1.) Limit what you say to a pregnant person, especially towards the end
What I mean by that is while I appreciate everyone being interested in my pregnancy, I hear the same thing 50 times a day and it's hard to keep answering some questions.

2.) Everyone has an opinion and yours is wrong
Ugh, people are just asshats! Everyone will give you their opinion of what you are going through compared to what they went through even though every pregnancy (and every person) is different. I just keep thinking that it's good practice for when these people start to tell me how to raise my child.

3.) Exercise is awesome
Well I already knew that, but I was able to do real workouts until about 36 weeks where I was riding a bike, swimming or on the elliptical in addition to walking and yoga. Now I'm just down to yoga and walking but I'm still doing those things and it really does make me feel good, and I think has helped me throughout the pregnancy.

4.) The body is an amazing thing
I can believe how stretched out I am, it's crazy! This is a comparison photo from 6 weeks to 37 weeks.

I should take a picture this week to show that I've dropped but I keep forgetting to do that.

5.) Gratitude
I had already started a gratitude list at the beginning of the year (which I failed at keeping up with). I am grateful for so much though, and being pregnant has helped me to see even more. I have amazing friends and family and support system. My husband is the greatest man in the world. My dogs are incredible as is my cat...and my husband and I are really good at training them (when we are consistent). Our world is very full and complete and wonderful. We are lucky and I'm happy about that.

"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."

I am excited to meet this little man and I realize that while this journey is coming to an end, I have a new wonderful journey that's just about to begin...and luckily I can have some wine to help me with this new journey :)

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Witnessing road rage

On my way to work today I was able to witness some crazy road I had my phone out to call 9-1-1 road rage. All of this was in my rear view mirror and it scared the crap out of me.

It all began as I was turning right onto River Road...the car behind me threw some trash out their passenger window (from the drivers seat). I shook my head at him but just kept driving. I then realized that car (a Lexus of course) had been really close to the line a few blocks earlier (two lane road) and was pretty close to hitting the side of my car. The road I was on is kind of thin for two lanes so I'm used to cars being close on that road, but I started thinking about that.

Now on River, it's a two lane road, I stay in the right hand lane...the Lexus took the left hand lane but was behind me. Cue the Nissan. The Lexus was riding the line and the Nissan didn't like that. The Lexus then began trying to cut off the Nissan, the Nissan then sped up and back and forth this went. The Lexus driving in his 50s the Nissan driver, in his/her 20s. The Lexus kept driving between the two lanes, swerving back and forth between the two lanes. Somehow, the Nissan was able to pass the Lexus, though the Lexus tried very hard to prevent that from happening and got REALLY close to my back end...somehow the Nissan squeezed in between the Lexus and me...and then the Lexus turned left at the light.

This all took place over approximately 1/2-1 mile of road.

This would have been freaky in general, but pregnancy makes me paranoid so I was super scared. That's why I have my phone out to call 9-1-1 but by the time I got my ear piece in (to follow the law when calling) the Lexus was turning left. I thought about calling in case the Lexus remained in poor driving condition on Belmont, but decided to just let it go and blog about it as an careful out there kids! Between the blood moon with it's eclipse and mercury in retrograde, I think that there are a ton of crazy things that could happen today.

Monday, September 29, 2014


I'm starting to get really nervous about all sorts of unknown (and uncontrollable) things. I am 99% sure that this is a normal part of pregnancy, but wanted to write about it anyway.

My due date is 5 weeks away from today. 5 weeks away...35 days...holy cow, 35 days away. I realize that he can really come at any point between now and then (and a few days later) but still...35 days away.

I'm nervous about labor, which is funny because a week or two ago I told my husband I wasn't. I know it's going to hurt, but I know it's temporary. Of course, as my baby has less and less room, and I experience these fun "practice" contractions more and more, I'm becoming nervous about labor.

I'm nervous about much can go right, wrong, unknown!

I'm nervous about the weather and about traffic. It's Chicago, I realize that there is always going to be traffic, I'm just nervous about it. Weather at the end of October/beginning of November can be anything too.

I realize I have NO CONTROL over any of the things I'm nervous about. I think that's why I'm nervous about these control. I realize I am about to enter this next stage of my life where I have no control. It's terrifying!

I'm nervous about my dogs, even though I know I don't need to be. I need to be aware but not nervous. I'm nervous about my recovery, what if I can't leave the upstairs of my house for a week or two due to delivery complications?

What if I don't know I'm in labor? What if I go too early or wait too long? What then?

So many things to obsess and be nervous over, it's insane. I keep trying to do little things here and there to set my mind at ease, but it's not working anymore. Plus the exhaustion is just overwhelming...but I still try. Yesterday we went to the Farmers Market, made chili and an apple pie, and put up Halloween decorations...I just laid down in between those things.

Today, I will work all day, swim, and hopefully put away some of the baby's clothes. Tomorrow I will work on packing my bag (which is another holy crap moment). My husband needs to pack his own bag...and I need to remember to pack stuff for the baby in my bag. Oh and installing the car seat, but that's my husband's job.

Again, all scary things...all things that I'm starting to ask, "what did we get ourselves into"...but I know that it will all be alright in the end...I mean come on, Weezer's new album is even called, "Everything Will Be Alright In The End" that's a sign right?

Saturday, September 27, 2014

(Almost) 35 weeks and counting

So this is where the bloating and the irritability and the beginning of lack of sleep kicks in. I have very little fuse and it's noticeable. I try really hard!

For example, someone just told me, "wow, you really are bloated" in regards to my feet. Yes I know. That didn't bother me too much. The comment that another person made did, "are you trying to avoid salt?" really? That's your question to me? I'm 35 weeks pregnant...I'm trying to avoid anything and everything that could potentially make me feel worse...and do you honestly think that SALT is my problem?

I'm also really irritated because I am at work today when I really shouldn't have to have been...and the event was in direct after 2 hours I was sent inside because I was beat red and had trouble breathing...and after an hour inside I'm feeling sick. But do I get to go home? Nope...need to stick it out at least another hour.

Oh well :(

Overall this pregnancy has been great...I'm in the home stretch...this lil man needs to bake a little bit longer.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014


I had an odd incident happen this morning as I was leaving my house and it's left me a bit frazzled.

I was backing out of my driveway, slowly. I had a bit of condensation on my car and the sun was directly behind me so it was a bit difficult to see out my back window. As always I checked for people on the sidewalk...nothing. I checked for a car on the street...nothing. All of the sudden, boom. I had backed into someone who had pulled into my driveway.

I got out and checked that he was ok and that I was ok and that the cars were ok. They all were since I was going maybe 5 mph but more like 2 mph.

What has me more frazzled was the other drivers reaction. Totally on the defensive that he had just delivered a paper across the street and was using my driveway to turn around. In the moment I was fine with it, but now I'm kind of pissed about this entire thing. It's fine that you use my driveway, but when you see that I'm backing up out of my driveway, maybe don't use my driveway, or maybe wait until I'm done backing up out of my driveway. My guess is that he didn't see that I was backing up because when he finished his turning around he gunned it down the street (it's a 25mph zone and he was gone so fast he had to be going 35/40).

Now yes, I'm super sensitive right now, and I yelled in the car when it happened because it shocked me (he came out of no where) and my belly tightened a bit (fight or flight of course) but really why was that guy so defensive and did he even see me? That's more concerning to me right now.

Of course I'm also worried about my driving skills I too pregnant to drive? Too much doubt comes to mind :(

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

31 weeks and counting

Hello everyone,

As usual, I took a summer vacation from blogging...mostly because I'm too busy at work and too tired when I get home.

Baby news is he is still cooking (yes a he)...I failed the one hour glucose test which was bad but passed the three hour test which is no fun at all, but I passed. I had friends telling me in the middle of the three hour test that I can deny it...why would you tell me that after I've already started the dang thing???

So here are some new observations since I left you all.
- People see you as pregnant and feel they can say anything they want to you.
- Showing that you're pregnant makes people feel they can touch you
- My friends and people I wouldn't mind touching my belly are the ones who are most likely to not touch my's the strangers who feel that they have the right to
- People love to tell horror stories (either their own or ones that they have heard)
- People love to tell you what to do and how to do it in regards to all things pregnancy, baby and raising a child
- Overweight people love to tell you how HUGE you look when you're pregnant
- People do seem to be more understanding of brain farts when you're pregnant
- People do seem to smile at you more when you're pregnant
- People still do not move out of the way and will bump into you

I think that the worst thing was a very large woman asking me how far along I was, I responded about 6 months and she said, "no you're not, you are way too large to only be 6 months pregnant"...that was the worst one. She was larger than me and just wanted to insult someone else I'm guessing. In the same regard though, the opposite statement bothered me too...a colleague hadn't seen me in a while and didn't notice I was pregnant (this was right around the same time the large stranger had said something to me)...I mentioned my pregnancy and my colleague was shocked and said that "you're hiding it well". How can I be both too large to be 6 months pregnant and hiding it?

Now though I'm shrugging it off much better than I was, but man people sure think that they can do whatever they want around you when you're pregnant!

I've also been trying very hard not to have discussions with people regarding sensitive subjects, such as natural birth versus epidural or other drugs; vaccinations/vaccination scheduling; circumcision; faith etc. People sure want to know those things though.