During this final semester and final class in Graduate School, I took Grief Counseling. It's an interesting course and I've learned so much information out about myself. One of the things that I've determined I need to do is redefine who I am and what I like.
So much of my life I have worn a mask, done things for other people or because I thought other people wanted me to do them. Now I realize (at only age 30) that I need to do what I like. Yes I enjoy making other people happy, but since I cannot control other people, I can only control myself, that is where my focus needs to be.
To begin this project (so to speak) I have started to do things that I used to enjoy doing. Things that I may have started for someone else, and now need to see if I like doing it for me. So far I have discovered that yes, these are good things for me.
Sunday, per the pictures I posted, we went on a 30 mile bike ride (with breaks in between). I want to go on another 30 miler this weekend, but alas, we have other plans at the moment. The ride was good and it felt great and I was all smiles.
Today, I went for a morning run. I have not been able to go running recently, no motivation, desire, or much enjoyment of it. This morning though, not the case. My brother told me last night he wants to go for a 5 mile run the morning of his wedding reception with me. I haven't run 5 miles since my bike accident almost a year and a half ago. No time like the present to start it.
I'm having fun figuring out my likes and dislikes again. So far, no dislikes, just likes :)
Ok, off to work!
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Maiden Voyage
There were quick a few different voyages that we undertook today, all which deserve to be discussed, and many which should have been recorded but I forgot the Flip at home.
I went to deposit my first paycheck (which was totally messed up, missing about half of it, but should be fixed by Tuesday). So I went through the drive-thru and the boyfriend commented on how it was like we were back in the 80s. Yes, quite exciting for him as he is an ATM only user. While we were waiting for my receipt, we heard a car crash happen but did not see it until we pulled out. It was unique since normally you hear the beep and screech but no crash...this was a beep crash. No one looked injured so that was good.
Next step, driving to the newly renovated Target...on the way we passed this bar which has the Iowa Hawkeyes flag, Chicago Bears flag, and Indianapolis Colts flag. The bf pointed this out and said it was weird that they had Iowa and Ohio, when I heard that I looked thinking maybe the Buckeyes were there...no, he confused the Colts as being in Ohio not Indiana. That was the first of many awesome one liners from him today.
The Target is pretty awesome, wider aisles, more foods to pick from, pretty cool. We also found an awesome rainy day project of plaster bobble head kits that we get to paint! So excited to do this, you have no idea. The problem with the new Target, everyone is unsure of where things are, thus more wandering.
Why is it that people, while shopping, forget that there are other people around them trying to shop as well? It's as though people think walking down the middle of the aisle, leaving your cart wherever, randomly stopping, cutting people off, or the favorite of the day is as follows.
The checkout counters are setup two at in row. We were waiting in line and the woman starts to open up right next to us (meaning we were right at her conveyor belt). Instead of her taking us, or saying anything to us for that matter, we notice she's opening and as we were backing up, two guys say "Great timing" and start throwing their stuff on the counter. The bf and I look at each other and just said (loudly) well that was rude. I mean I'm all for waiting your turn in line, but when you're waiting in line and right next to the person who is opening up and at the belt, wouldn't you think you'd at least ask instead of try to push people away? Of course, we stayed in the line that we were in and that was a mistake. The cashier we had did not understand how to give gift receipts to the person in front of us, so by the time she got to us she wanted nothing to do with us. Including, not scanning our coupons nor taking off the discount for bringing our own bags.
New fact that I learned today though...you must be 18 years old to purchase compressed air. The woman who wanted nothing to do with me, carded me. I asked her for what. "Um, that" with a point towards all of the stuff we had bought. At first I thought it was the lysol, then realized it was the air. So yes...weird experience.
Joann fabric and grocery shopping were next, which were uneventful.
Now...I'm making my sauce from scratch (which I love) and instead of regular meatballs....beef sausage meatballs!
The other new adventure...dehydrating fruit :) We are in the process of dehydrating a bunch of bananas and a dozen apricots. Hopefully in 6-20 hours we will have some tasty dried fruit!
The unfortunate part about all of this, I was hoping to go to a Housewarming party at 3...it is 5:15 and I'm so not ready to go, thus, staying home and going to work on things around the house. In order for us to go out and take advantage of tomorrow's beautiful day, I cannot treat myself to a party today. I will make it up to my friend I hope by going out to dinner soon!
So I hope that the fruit comes out ok...and no, the Colts are not in Ohio :)
I went to deposit my first paycheck (which was totally messed up, missing about half of it, but should be fixed by Tuesday). So I went through the drive-thru and the boyfriend commented on how it was like we were back in the 80s. Yes, quite exciting for him as he is an ATM only user. While we were waiting for my receipt, we heard a car crash happen but did not see it until we pulled out. It was unique since normally you hear the beep and screech but no crash...this was a beep crash. No one looked injured so that was good.
Next step, driving to the newly renovated Target...on the way we passed this bar which has the Iowa Hawkeyes flag, Chicago Bears flag, and Indianapolis Colts flag. The bf pointed this out and said it was weird that they had Iowa and Ohio, when I heard that I looked thinking maybe the Buckeyes were there...no, he confused the Colts as being in Ohio not Indiana. That was the first of many awesome one liners from him today.
The Target is pretty awesome, wider aisles, more foods to pick from, pretty cool. We also found an awesome rainy day project of plaster bobble head kits that we get to paint! So excited to do this, you have no idea. The problem with the new Target, everyone is unsure of where things are, thus more wandering.
Why is it that people, while shopping, forget that there are other people around them trying to shop as well? It's as though people think walking down the middle of the aisle, leaving your cart wherever, randomly stopping, cutting people off, or the favorite of the day is as follows.
The checkout counters are setup two at in row. We were waiting in line and the woman starts to open up right next to us (meaning we were right at her conveyor belt). Instead of her taking us, or saying anything to us for that matter, we notice she's opening and as we were backing up, two guys say "Great timing" and start throwing their stuff on the counter. The bf and I look at each other and just said (loudly) well that was rude. I mean I'm all for waiting your turn in line, but when you're waiting in line and right next to the person who is opening up and at the belt, wouldn't you think you'd at least ask instead of try to push people away? Of course, we stayed in the line that we were in and that was a mistake. The cashier we had did not understand how to give gift receipts to the person in front of us, so by the time she got to us she wanted nothing to do with us. Including, not scanning our coupons nor taking off the discount for bringing our own bags.
New fact that I learned today though...you must be 18 years old to purchase compressed air. The woman who wanted nothing to do with me, carded me. I asked her for what. "Um, that" with a point towards all of the stuff we had bought. At first I thought it was the lysol, then realized it was the air. So yes...weird experience.
Joann fabric and grocery shopping were next, which were uneventful.
Now...I'm making my sauce from scratch (which I love) and instead of regular meatballs....beef sausage meatballs!
The other new adventure...dehydrating fruit :) We are in the process of dehydrating a bunch of bananas and a dozen apricots. Hopefully in 6-20 hours we will have some tasty dried fruit!
The unfortunate part about all of this, I was hoping to go to a Housewarming party at 3...it is 5:15 and I'm so not ready to go, thus, staying home and going to work on things around the house. In order for us to go out and take advantage of tomorrow's beautiful day, I cannot treat myself to a party today. I will make it up to my friend I hope by going out to dinner soon!
So I hope that the fruit comes out ok...and no, the Colts are not in Ohio :)
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Things I have learned this week
- Illinois and California are the only states with Psychiatric Nursing Homes
- Many individuals at the Long Term Care facility are very active in programs available to them
- Sometimes it can be too early to be completely autonomous at a job
- I have been working towards the right goals in my life
- I am going to be an awesome therapist
- Walking home from work is a really cool way to unwind at the end of the day
- Working an 8 hours day is possible in this day and age
- Working an 8 hour day appears to have a negative correlation in regards to stress
- I remember what it is like to be happy
- I cannot wait until my internship is done (Saturday)
Monday, July 5, 2010
Nervous
I am so nervous about starting my new job tomorrow since it's not just a new job, it's my new career. I am so close to graduating, starting my new career, it's what I want and what I've been working towards, but I'm nervous as hell.
OK, going to go calm down and prep for my new career.
OK, going to go calm down and prep for my new career.
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