Totally f'd - repost from LJ

If you have access to my friends only posts on LJ then you've already read this...well I'm slightly modifying since I don't have a friends only filter setup on here. I'm focusing on my concerns regarding my internship and my life.

I have had 2-3 anxiety attacks in the past 3-4 days. I have had stomach problems for the past 2 days, and what appears to be a never ending headache.

I am 100+ hours into my 700 hour internship yet I am unsure if/how I will get my 600 other hours. Why? My schedule is changing today because someone left and I don't know if anyone can cover the hours I need someone there with me.

I'm worried as all hell about being f'd. I'm worried as all hell that I can't keep this up. I'm feeling really vulnerable right now and am having a really hard time keeping it together at my desk this morning.

Add to that my work stress...I need a position that is 8:30-5 and no need to stay later...my team works 9:30-6, I'm here 8:30-5 most days, 8:30-6 or later on days without school or internship. I had to leave last night at 5, left by 5:15, most of my team was here until 6:45, I'm a bad boss.

I have too much on my plate, but I can't afford to do what I want to do.

I can't take another class next semester because I'm too stressed with what I've got already, but I NEED to take another class in order to graduate...I'd like to take the class this spring so I can get the financial aid, but unfortunately that's not an option because the class is on Monday nights. Here's the kicker, the class is a Stress Management class.

I can get through this...it's only another 8-9 months of my life, right?

F me