Being snubbed in the age of the internets

So I realize that I may have been snubbed today...and I'm reading between the lines...with what I want to see I suppose. Is it a bit negative? Absolutely, I haven't been snubbed like this in years. I thought I was past this.

The problem with being snubbed in the age of the internet is being able to see what you missed. Feeling like it's thrown in your face. Then making sure you don't do the same thing by going on a rant or being all high school. Was I slightly? Unfortunately yes. I played the passive aggressive game of stating I felt insulted by a friend and placing it in a social media platform.

Man...I don't know how anyone will survive high school now with the internet. I'm having a hard enough time not feeling like I'm in high school and I'm 30!

I'm usually very careful about what I put on the internet, but sometimes, my emotions take control of me and I play the passive aggressive game. I need to confront better or address situations better, rather than play the passive aggressive, use the internet as a game tool.

At least I can be vague right? To the next generation, good luck, life with the internet and social media may sting a bit!

WTF?

WTF am I doing? I can't even try to begin to figure it out. I'm in so many places at the same time...at least this morning (though the dogs woke me by hovering and staring at me until I would open my eyes) was warm and I saw the sun before interning.

Anyway, I can't stop and just enjoy a moment right now...I'm going in way too many directions at any one time. I know I'm becoming a therapist and all, but I need to figure out why in the hell I can't just be in a moment at any given time.

Let's just keep it in perspective

I had a fantastic three day weekend this past weekend. I haven't had a real weekend in months and I realized that in two months, I will have real weekends again.

Taking some time off and enjoying myself made me realize I need to do that more often. I also need to speak up and do what I want to do. So to start things off, I am going to take a real vacation this fall. I have two months of interning left, a graduation party to plan and have, a few weeks left of classes after that...and then I'm going to just be for a while.

This fall the BF and I need to go away, just the two of us. Everyone I've talked to seems to agree with this statement, and here I thought everyone would be upset! I'm really excited about this get away, even though it's 4-5 months away...my guess is the next 2 months are going to fly by which will really help.

I also realized that I put way too much pressure on myself and think that I really do need to do so many things for other people. Everyone once and a while I need to just do something for myself...and in 2 months I'll have lots more time for that.

Amazing what a few days off can do for ones' perspective.